I took photos of my face today. I look like my dad even though we do not share genes. He taught me about god and nature.
I miss him. I wonder if I am now as old as he is in this photo. My beard is turning grey.

Painted some. Hard to give myself over to explorations into ugliness seeking beauty.
I am beyond, far beyond the bad line. And now I have to deal with bad line, bad shape, bad color,…. but some of the work today make good things coming out of ugliness.
I do feel a little freer of technique. I gotta learn to play in new and deeper ways.

I lit a painting on fire with gasoline. Rarely has that been a good idea… and this time I am not sure yet. I like some breaks from the way. There was one good painting which has the eyes burned with a blowtorch. A nice person in Seattle bought it.

Fire is a very difficult art supply. I accidently drank a little gasoline. It doesn’t taste good.

My hand is flourescent orange and I have bright orange stripes on my arm.

I am somewhat pleased with the result of todays paint. My friend is right. I just gotta move paint and play.
Go go.

Good things will come.

someone wants to buy this lovely painting. Previous customer and friend.
4×4 feet.
I gotta find my spreadsheet on what is sold or not.
I should paint more in the general style and colors of this one. It is a pleasant peices.

This is the weird flower I recently saw here in the forest.
I found one near the house and then walking the other day I found one more.
I want to propogate this plant and see it this flower is fun to raise.

Here are a couple artists who lived in Erongaricuaro, Michoacan, Mexico.
My little town.
They were some of the surrealists who hung out here with Frida Khalo and Diego Rivera.

Gordon Onslow Ford
http://www.onslowford.com/biography/index.htm
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gordon_Onslow_Ford

Remedios Varo
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Remedios_Varo
http://mx.geocities.com/miscelaneavirtual/Remedios_Varo.html
http://www.honmex.com/eros/varo/gallery.html

I like the pretty colors.

Full set here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/brianfey/sets/72057594064430946/

for those if you who were wondering, these are time exposure shots done on the steet while wandering around mexico city at night. Then I enhance the colors.

Kinda fun and pretty though I guess there isn’t much other point to them.

Damn is is cold this morning! Luckily the sun warms things up fast.

I sent out an email to my potential housesitters so I can continue the movie project and and getting a great response! Yay!
I need to be able to have good housesitters here so I am not trapped!

Photos from the last work on the movie are here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/brianfey/sets/1503429/

Today I have a long list of things to get done. Will try to go to the hippie Kung Fu class as well. I know little about Kung Fu but read up on some of the philosophy last night.

Two materials needed for the secret art project are being delayed by a month. Arg!
I checked in on the local one which I expected would be done by now and they say they can start getting me what I need next month! Gee, would have been nice to know that before. I will seek another supplier today as I shouldn’t be dependant on one supplier anyway.
The materials from the states are on hold until I get some answers from the company about their materials. I got no reponse to my last email.

Painting is easier because I don’t have to be dependant on anyone… (Except maybe muses but I am trying to get over that.)
But this mixed media stuff with fancy materials to make psuedo-sculpture… requires collaborative effort and is harder.
Oh well, thats the fun I guess.

My new favorite dog is Patzsari. She loves me the most. Mambo is a big goof and Contreras is so contrary.
But they are all great! I want to build them a dog mobile to play with. Sticks on ropes. They liked Nimbus’s one so much they destroyed it.

Today was a good day.

I painted the base coat on about 12 canvases. Bold bright colors.

2000 bricks and 2000 concrete blocks and 20 bags of cement were delivered.

A local guy dropped by. He knows concrete work and building and will come help me monday.

A writer visited today. He is an interesting person. Several published books (in spanish). From Spain. Teaches kung fu.
He is exactly one day older than me. Very interesting guy.
One if his more interesting books is here: http://lenguadetrapo.com/00043-NB-ficha.html
I wish I had a copy.

Puppies are fine. Nimbus is fine. Cuddles is very fine in his new terrarium home. You are fine.
All is fine.

Jeez… what a day!

BEST THING: Stage one of the new super cool super secret art project is done… And it went well! If it didn’t I would not have continued.
Now comes stages 2 and three. Stage two will cost over $1500 bucks to get started. Yow! But it will have unworldy prettiness! (I need to buy some exotic supplies shipped in from Asia.)
And stage three will be another $4000 in supplies and some other costs… But… then I should have about 20 pieces of incredible art like I have never seen before with my style! Yay! It will be… Mixed media I guess… Wall hangable psuedo sculpture.
I gotta invest in me I guess. And todays results indicate that I can make it work…. If today didn’t work out I would have likely bailed on the idea.
There are still a couple unknowns…
Save your money now… I should be able to sell the resulting piece at around $1000 or so… without losing money. Although they will weigh about 20 lbs each… to I guess transport is an issue.
They will only be 2×2 or 2×4 feet, about an inch deep, but will be more cool than anything you have in your house now! And I should be able to use them to distinguish myself as an artist.
Think caveman painting for the year 3000 A.C. (After Crucifixion.)

Got more dog and pup food. Left the puppies out all day…. they were fine.
A bunch of other stuff happened that I don’t feel like writing about. Errands and survival.
The gravel guy did show up… I ordered sand for tommorrow morning… when I got home he was here delivering it… ??? Can no one follow a plan? Anyway I have the sand. The guy bugs me a bit.. he asks too many curious questions… How many people live here? (20 I say )How much did this place cost? (Private) Many questions…
I think I will hire another person just cause he is curious beyond what I want people to be about here.

Composting toilet:
All Base done: I need to take some measurements for the metal guy… and then get the soil doors and seat made, and the entry door…
And then build a brick wall around it for a little privacy.

The guys are starting on Gomer 2 platform. And the wall around the pool to some kids doesn’t drown like the bunny, coyote, some mice, and the armadillo did.
And I need to design the sauna area. Sauna VERY important for people to be clean naked and warm in a place that is dirty and sometimes cold and has a major water shotrage 2/3 of the year.

Nimbus has become a good kitty because I pay him less attention and so he wants to be good now. He follows like a cat… He is polite. Yay!

I think I may actually succeed here. It is encouraging. I need to work harder. Dawn till late night. If I do that for 20 years I will be fine.

To those of you who have sent the supportive notes from “home” Thank you so much. I need them. I survive on them.

The puppies are getting to be people more and more… they will need a lot more from me for the next month…

I need to work on the people end of new years… part of me wants to cancel and be a wuss… but I won’t… I will create special superness for some folks.
I want them to have an intense time and a good one. Much work to do on that end of things.

Was up at 7:30 am this morning. Went to set. Back a little late for date, then another date, back to the set bringing date.
Then off to another set. Off to Coyoacan for another date… bought a really nice alpaca sweater. YAY! I used to have one I really liked and this one is even prettier.
Then back to the set…
I am getting back to the main set at 6 am. And I need to be up at 8:30 am to go off to another set.
I should get some time tommorrow to finish the symbol for the religion in the movie… actually the symbol is all done but I am going to improve the painting around it.
And I need to compile the various exorcism elements and incorporate the special stuff… making up a religion.
It is quite believable… kinda a fung shui for christianity.
Designing your house to keep out demons.

The set has been repainted a pretty mottled blue. My paintings will be props.

And Tueday will be the hardest day of acting in my life. Very important to do well. Hard to get the mix of intense, real and insane.
I will try various interpretations tommorrow with my video camera.
The producer is a cool well connected guy and seems to like me. I told him I might be interested in other gringo parts.

For now I am alone here on the set. All windows open to let paint fumes out. No power or water. No heat and it is cold here It is less comfortable here than in the forest. And I haven’t had a shower in three days (I still look good on camera though.) and I am kinda tired out. I have only gotten about 7 hours free in the last week, but it is all pretty fun and I am learning a lot about how to act for the camera.

You wouldn’t believe todays shoot. trippy shit. Papa Ubu from a french play but in military garb seduce/oppressing aztec princes in a big empty theatre. There is person in a goofy near outfit too. I hope it flies. Does a bear shit when it flies over the woods?

I did take photos of the odd scenes. Will upload when not totally zooming.

If my part in the film isn’t totally embarassing, I want to get it into the Seattle film gestival so my friend can see it. I do get a copy of the film on DVD afterwards.

Mexico City is becoming less weird for me. I drive around in my van overloaded with film equipment. Luckily the police to not seem to notice me yet. I guess I can handle Mexico City at least for the moment. The director and producer cast and crew take good care of me when they think ahead at all. They seem to like me. People say my name when they pass me for some reason. Come to think of it, people in Morelia say my name too. “Brian Fey” Why do they do that?

Time to fall down.
Need to be up in two hours.